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For our Holy Week, an uplifting story of a selfless conversion. Here is a story of a grandmother who has decided that 15 years of cancer treatment is enough, and that it’s time to distribute her wealth to those in need around her. 

After 15 years spent battling oral cancer, Washington resident Sonya Beard is giving up her fight — in order to give back to her community.

Fifteen years. That’s how long 74-year-old Sonya Beard has been fighting oral cancer. But now, after multiple surgeries and treatments, she says she has had enough. While her doctors wanted her to start radiation therapy, Beard is instead enjoying the time she has left, and making a huge difference in her community. She has already donated hundreds of thousands of dollars from her life savings to several organizations near her Mount Vernon, Wash., home, and she’s not done yet.

 Giving Back

A lifelong reader, Sonya’s first donation was $500,000 to the Mount Vernon City Library. In an exclusive interview with Tonic, she says that reading made her “the cornerstone of what I am today. I wouldn’t have been able to travel or do the things I have done without my love of books.”

As a child, Beard and family would go to the library on Saturday to get their books for the week. “I got to the point where I was obnoxious with my mother about trying to get my nose out of a book.” She has since instilled “a passion for books and reading” in her four grandchildren.

Beard couldn’t attend the library meeting when her donation was announced, but she finally made it down there on Monday. “I went this afternoon and I’m just thrilled to death with what they’re going to be able to do” with her donation, she says. The library is planning a major expansion that might not have been possible without Beard’s donation.

Thinking Forward

Beard has also donated $165,000 to Skagit Valley Hospital, also located in Mount Vernon, so they can purchase hyperbaric oxygen therapy equipment to help patients recover from surgeries like the ones Beard has endured. Until this, the closest hyperbaric equipment was in Seattle, more than 60 miles away.

“I found it necessary to undergo the treatment after one of my surgeries, but I was not able to travel,” she says. “I had to rent an apartment down there for six weeks. It’s a terrible handicap for a person to have to move themselves to another area. A lot of people in Mount Vernon don’t have the means to relocate themselves down there. I knew we had patients that needed it here and they couldn’t afford it.”

Beard has been pushing the hospital to get the new equipment up and running quickly. “I was just down there to see the progress on the oxygen chamber. They’re moving fast. They’re remodeling the wound center now, and we’re hoping for an opening in June.”

More to Come

Her battle with cancer has also inspired her to create a foundation, which will be established where she had her surgeries at the University of Washington Medical Center, after her death. “You may not know this,” she says, “but people with oral cancer are not reimbursed by insurance for dental prostheses. I set up in my will that they’ll have a foundation that will be able to pay for people who need these prostheses.”

Beard was able to purchase her own prosthesis, but it had to be removed just five months later when her doctors found more cancer. “I spent over $20,000 for a prosthesis I only had for five months. That was very discouraging to think that this might happen to someone else. It’s not right to say that this is cosmetic when it’s the only means you have for eating. There’s way too many people walking around without teeth because they won’t be able to pay for it.”

Beard’s charitable contributions don’t end there. She just paid off the mortgage at Bethany Convent Church, her church of the last ten years, and she is considering additional donations in her town. “My way is to help as many as I possibly can,” she says. “And if that helps future generations as well, that’s even better.”

A Positive Outlook

Despite her cancers, which also includes a battle with breast cancer eight years ago, Beard remains a positive person who enjoys her life. “It’s become a way of life,” she says of her cancer. “But really, other people have it worse. So we won’t dwell on that,” she laughs.

“I have been extremely fortunate with my life,” she says. “I never thought I would be in a position to do something like this. I don’t have the education, but somehow I did it.”

But Beard did learn from the people she met in her life. She learned how to invest when she worked as secretary for stockbrokers and bankers, a talent that has made these current donations possible.

In an interview with local KOMO News, Beard said, “I’m not a wealthy person, I’m not a famous person — but I feel like if I can stimulate one person to get the ball rolling then we can make a difference.”

Beard’s husband passed away 11 years ago, leaving her with three step-sons she considers “her wonderful boys.” “They’ve given me four wonderful grandchildren,” she says. “My life is complete with them.”

I would be very interested to know how much faith played a role in this woman’s decision.  I bet alot.  Unfortunately, it wasn’t something the writer covered. 

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The Gospel for today is another unique story, the story of the adulterous woman found only in John.  Scholars speculate that this story was a later edition to the text as it does not seem very Johannine, and may have been written by same author of Luke – Acts.  The Church believes it to be inspired scripture and it remains one of the most popular stories in all the Bible.

while Jesus went to the Mount of Olives.  But early in the morning he arrived again in the temple area, and all the people started coming to him, and he sat down and taught them. Then the scribes and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in adultery and made her stand in the middle.  They said to him, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the very act of committing adultery.  Now in the law, Moses commanded us to stone such women.  So what do you say?”  They said this to test him, so that they could have some charge to bring against him. Jesus bent down and began to write on the ground with his finger.   But when they continued asking him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let the one among you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.”  Again he bent down and wrote on the ground.  And in response, they went away one by one, beginning with the elders. So he was left alone with the woman before him.  Then Jesus straightened up and said to her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”  She replied, “No one, sir.” Then Jesus said, “Neither do I condemn you. Go, (and) from now on do not sin any more.”   John 8:1-11

Our friend Fr. Jon at Redemptorist Preacher takes an in-depth look at the underlying drama to the story; after all, this was a trap being laid for Jesus, one of several instances in the Gospel in which he is challenged by Jewish leaders with a seemingly no-win situation (e.g. the question of paying Roman taxes).  Here the trap is that while Mosaic law (religious) required adulterers to be stoned to death, Roman law (civil) forbade any private capital punishment.  Should Jesus heed the Hebrew law of his ancestors or obey the might of the Roman authorities?   Either way he answers could lead to his own death.  The scribes and Pharisees chose a very visible, crowded venue to challenge him.  How fraught the situation, and how humiliating for this woman, who likely may have been dragged there immediately after being found in flagrante delicto. 

My Sunday to Sunday nonsensical weekly just wanted to discuss the inherent sexual bias of the story and bemoan that women are still being kept down by The Man.  You know, the Church and the Pope and mean guys everywhere.  Blessedly, our Bible study leader decided to scrap the Gospel reflections from the Sunday to Sunday and instead spend the entire time leading our own discussion, which was enlightening and uplifting.  I confess that I disliked this story for a long time.  In my opinion, it was used in an anti-Christian way for far too long, and is the go-to verse for moral relativists everywhere.  But I am so glad that I had this week to study and reflect on it.  I have a whole new appreciation for the complexity of this Gospel.  

Our Bible study was wonderful, too.  We dwelt on Jesus’ silence, his remarkable silence.  In reflecting on our discussion, it occurs to me that this possibly throwaway story shows us the way to be Christians, as Jesus role models the virtues we should aspire to: 

  • Justice
  • Temperance
  • Prudence
  • Courage
  • Faith
  • Hope
  • Love

Everyone discussing this Gospel account sooner or later uses it to point to Jesus’ non-judgment and that oftentimes becomes the sole takeaway from it.  “Jesus said he didn’t judge the woman and neither should we.”  This (I think) is an incorrect lesson for us, or at least not the sole lesson.  Jesus does not condemn the adulteress, but I think he does judge the woman.  In so doing, he actually shows us how to judge.  Never does Jesus tell her she is not a sinner and not guilty of her crime.  In fact, he forgives her and instructs her to turn from her path of sin – “go and sin no more.”   See that?  He did not simply say, “Go on, beat it!”  He did not say, “well then, clearly you are not guilty.” 

Then Jesus straightened up and said to her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”  She replied, “No one, sir.” Then Jesus said, “Neither do I condemn you. Go, (and) from now on do not sin any more.”  

The condemnation of the crowd would have been her stoning, her loss of earthly life.  Jesus does not condemn her and in so doing, he presages our Reconciliation sacrament.  Jesus’ pardon refers to her eternal condemnation.  Jesus frees her; he is her savior just as we know he is ours.  He came to free us from our sins.  But inherent in this act of compassion, and mercy is his act of divine justice.  The woman must not sin anymore. 

And what does that mean, “sin no more”?  We know by the Catechism that we are all sinners and fall short of the grace of God.  Is the woman, and are we, required to “sin no more”?  How can we take on such a burden?  What is Jesus telling us?

In order to be absolved of our sins, in order for God’s merciful forgiveness to be ours, we must convert our hearts.  We must renounce the sin in which we find ourselves and we must earnestly intend to not persist in it.  How many of us understand that?  We ask for God’s forgiveness but have we truly renounced our sin within our heart of hearts?  Do we walk into our confession hardened to Jesus’ words?  We know from Revelation and from Pauline letters that we may not persist in our sins, and that Jesus WILL come again to judge the living and the dead.  Our acts on earth will be weighed in the balance.  So we must repent now, and that means to renounce our sins and promise to do better.

So how are we to judge if we should not condemn?  We know that only God knows the secrets of our hearts, and only He has perfect justice and mercy.  We must trust to His justice.  But as Christians, we are called upon to lead our fallen brothers and sisters back to the path, and correct one another in a spirit of love and gentleness.  In good faith, can we allow those entrusted to our care to persist in their sin?  I think we cannot.  Adultery, premarital sex, gossiping, sloth, illegal business practices, addictions, whatever the moral failing, this Gospel is not telling us it is none of our business.  It is showing us the way to intervene as a Christ follower should:  take time to reflect in silence and humility, maybe get down in the dirt a bit to fully understand the situation, see all sides, when finally necessary to speak, do so calmly, temperately and fairly, do not offer condemnation but rather love, forgiveness and a hope for reconciliation, make it clear to the sinner that Christ expects their metanoia.

Our sins are so hard to renounce, our hearts slow to convert.  Speaking the truth in charity and gentleness must be matched by our own humility, our understanding of our own failures.  We have a faith that goes beyond following an established set of rules.  Our faith requires us to devote our time, energy, intellect and spirit in a constant conversion away from ourselves and over to God.

Our God is so awesome!

Pray with me: 

O my God, I am heartily sorry for having offended thee and I detest all my sins, because I dread the loss of heaven and the pains of hell, but most of all because they offend thee, my God, who are all good and deserving of all my love. I firmly resolve, with the help of thy grace, to confess my sins, to do penance, and to amend my life.

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Driving in the darkness to work very early Friday morning, I was blessed to hear a re-broadcast on EWTN of Father Leo Clifford’s Reflection program talking about Hope.  It was a short but oh-so-powerful talk on one of my favorite subjects.  When I got home that afternoon, I went to the EWTN audio library and downloaded it,  and then I transcribed it.   (you can also find his Reflections programs here)  Here then are the highlights of this Reflection on Hope by Father Leo Clifford, O.F.M.:

‘The soul that is not alive with hope as well as faith and love, is not complete.’   

— Fr. Clifford quoting St. Augustine   [note: “Wherefore there is no love without hope, no hope without love, and neither love nor hope without faith.”]

Have you made an Act of Hope recently? 

Oh my God, I hope in You for grace in this life and for glory in the life to come because You promised it.  And unlike us, You never go back of Your word, You never break Your promise.  And I hope in You, oh God because of Your mercy which is above all Your works, which is not put off by my failure, by my stupidity, by my sin.  And I hope in You, oh God, because of Your power, which is almighty and can do all things, even with me.  Therefore, oh God my Father, I–Your creature and Your child–trust You.

I looked it up and this Act of Hope appears to be original to Fr. Clifford and is certainly more eloquent than those I found online.

My friends, the supernatural virtue of hope is hard work.

To that, I say Amen, amen.  Hope is indeed hard work, just as Faith and Love are.  I do not know that many of us think of hope as something to be worked at, as a choice.  If most people do not realize that Love is a choice, how many fewer think that of Hope?   It goes back to the necessity of having Faith and Reason.  We come to God, we interact with each other, we live our lives not only through our feelings, but also through our intellect, through our will.  We must be conscious of what we are doing, engaged in the relationships of our lives, whether our relationship with God the Father or His Son or the Holy Spirit, or our parents, our spouses, our children, friends…even strangers.   Father’s words here are one of those instances when a “Duh” reaction in me turns into a “D’oh!” moment.  In other words, a thought that seems so obvious and unnecessary, when contemplated becomes realized as not the easy or natural conclusion one assumes.**  “Hope is hard work” is a lesson for me.

Then Fr. Clifford reminds us of Paul’s words in his letter to the Ephesians (“Now to him who is able to accomplish far more than all we ask or imagine, by the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.”–Eph 3:20)  Father Clifford interprets Paul’s meaning:  God is all-powerful, more powerful than we can imagine,  more than powerful enough to achieve His designs which He has for each of us.  How can we not hope in Him? (more…)

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…in the cold dark night, she’s not giving–not giving up.

Hope, sweet Hope, how much more can she take?  Being our strength when our hearts run out of faith.

Hope in the Prison of Despair by Evelyn Pickering De Morgan

Hope in the Prison of Despair by Evelyn Pickering De Morgan

What a beautiful sight for the worn and weary eye!

Acknowledgements:  David Zach and Ian Eskelin

Lately, this powerful song has been in constant rotation on my IPod.   We all need hope…at some times more than others, and this song has been a gift, holding my hand.

Hope is with me in my time of trouble / when it all comes crashing down, she will stay / by my side, digging through the rubble. / She’s not giving up.

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I believe because I want to believe, I hope because I want to hope, I love because I want to love. –Dorothy Day, Loaves and Fishes

This reminds me of you, friend.  You taught me that love can be a choice.

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